I feel like I am slowly getting better. I am starting to feel happy between the periods of feeling numb. I am rarely in pain. To move forward I feel like I need to tell my family and close friends, but I know I can never do that. They will never understand. My friends have mocked people with self harm issues because they do not understand what they are going through… what I am going through. I was ready to tell my mum, I was just building up the courage, then she said someone that self harmed was stupid, a silly girl. If only she knew she was describing me. I am starting to feel like I am better off alone.